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It's tomorrow. Argh. All i can say is everybody must jiayou! Or hwaiting!

I hope I don't screw up.
I hope she doesn't screw up.

SYF GOLD WITH HONOURS~!
A DREAM COME TRUE I WISH.

PRAY FOR US.(:

 
Ah. A 1999 movie. Yes. Old but brilliant. No wonder I found it so darn familiar.

Haley Joel Osment is seriously a damn good actor. Gah. The scenes were all so vivid. With the dead people and all. It wasn't scary. Disturbing actually.

But it was interesting. And I enjoyed it a lot. No words can describe how good it was. The twist at the end was incredible. The ending made me cry. Like serious.

When Cole confessed that he could see ghosts. He told his mom that grandma did go to her dance recital and that yes she was proud of her EVERYDAY. I totally teared. Like seriously. The overflow of emotions.
And then the last part where Maclolm realises that he is in fact one of the dead people. DAMN. BOOM

He was free to go after helping Cole and all. Sigh. I cried again. Something is wrong with me

I fail at writing reviews lol. EVERYONE should watch it! HEHE (:

Responsibility. I fail at this.
I'm only empty talk and no action at all.
I don't do my homework. I can't be bothered.
I hand in my stuff late.
I don't listen in class.

My grades will drop. I can't do math. Not one bit.
I can't run. For nuts. I hate being me.
I'm not pretty for god's sake.
I'm not cute. Like people say.

Science project. great.

IPW. SIGH... Tradgedy. When I'm serious the rest are not.
For science. I'M TOO TIRED GUESSING IF YOU REALLY DID ANYTHING OR NOT....

But yeah, Thank you epik high for being so awesome and everything.

I am seriously screwed. Heck I wish I would stop blaming others.

SMILE? notice me. i'm fine?

Thanks for always being there tasha. Even though now we hardly talk because of me. D:

I AM EPIC FAIL...

Out of 100%, minus 1 for each thing you have down below:
100-32=68%

[ ]Smoked
[x]Drank alcohol ( i think beer's nice)
[x]Cried when someone died (drama serial counted?)
[ ]Been drunk
[ ]Had sex
[x]Been to a concert
[ ]Gotten/given a hand job
[ ]Gotten/given a blow job
[ ]Been verbally/sexually harassed
[ ]Verbally/sexually harassed somebody
[ ]Felt someone up and/or been felt up
[ ]Laughed so hard something came out of your nose
[ ]Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before
[ ]Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]Been to formal/prom
[x]Cried at school (loads of times and i'm NOT proud of it)
[ ]Gotten lost in a department store
[ ]Went streaking
[ ]Given or received a lap dance
[x]Had someone of the opposite sex in your room
[ ]Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over
[ ]Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house
[ ]Kissed a stranger
[x]Hugged a stranger (darn it was a mistake okay!)
[ ]Went scuba diving
[ ]Driven a car
[ ]Gotten an x-ray
[ ]Hit by a car (near-death experience)
[x]Had a party
[ ]Done serious drugs
[ ]Played strip poker/darts
[ ]Got paid to strip for someone
[x]Ran away from home
[ ]Broken a bone
[x]Eaten sushi
[ ]Bought drugs
[ ]Smoked weed
[ ]Striped in front of someone
[x]Had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x]Been in love
[ ]French Kissed
[x]Laughed so hard you cried
[x]Cried yourself to sleep (many times)
[ ]Laughed yourself to sleep
[ ]Stabbed yourself
[ ]Shot a gun
[x]Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day (i'm such a baddie...)
[x]Been online for 9 consecutive hours
[x]Watched tv the whole day
[x]Stayed up the whole night
[x]Watched a person die (again. drama serial counted?)
[ ]Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person
[x]Pranked somebody (like duh. part and parcel of my life)
[ ]Put somebody in the hospital
[x]Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out
[x]kissed somebody of the same sex (sister luh -.-)
[ ]dressed punk
[ ]Dressed goth
[ ]Dressed preppy
[ ]been to a motocross race
[x]Avoided somebody
[x]Been stalked
[x]stalked somebody
[x]Met a celebrity
[x]Played an instrument
[ ]Rode a horse
[x]Cut by something
[ ]Bungee jumped
[ ]Ding dong ditched somebody
[ ]Been to a wild party
[x]Been caught doing something bad
[ ] Kicked or punched a guy in the balls
[ ]Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend [x]Gone out with your friend's crush
[ ]Got arrested
[ ]Been pregnant
[x]Babysat
[x]Been to another country
[ ]Started your house on fire
[ ]Had an encounter with a ghost
[ ]Donated your hair to cancer patients
[x]Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by
[x]Cried over a member of the opposite sex
[x]Had a boyfriend or girlfriend over 2 months
[x]Sat on your butt all day
[x]Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself
[x]Had a job
[ ]Gotten cut from a sports team
[x]Been called a hoe
[ ]Danced like a hoe
[ ]Been mistaken for a celebrity
[ ] Been in a car accident
[x]Been told you have beautiful eyes
[x]Been told you have beautiful hair
[ ]Raped somebody
[x]Danced in the rain
[ ]Been rejected
[ ]Left a restaurant without paying
[x]Punched someone/slapped someone in the face (he called me names. like wtf?]                 
[ ]Been raped

I realise... I wanna relive the past again.

1 song can bring back such memories. I can cry while listening to it.
It's a beautiful song, i guess... kingdom hearts - dearly beloved.

Memories. Yes I wanna go back there again. Not that the present is horrible. It's not that good either.

It's not stress but i like the nostalgia. Sentimental i guess? I'm a scorpio. And yes horoscopes are true. I think I do believe them already. Cause everything that's there is seriously applicable to me. Well most i guess.

I'm deeply commited to all relationships. Yes so true. Which is why I get quite heartbroken sometimes. But I don't really show it out? Another true trait of a scorpio. It's good in a way. because if people read you like an open book, it's not very good is it?

Another trait is that i get secrets out of people very easily. Relatively true. Is it cause I look like I'm trustworthy? Haha. But yeah, I hope I am.

So i think scorpios are quite emotional but they don't show it. Ironic much? Yes.

Results weren't the best. But at least I improved. But this semester however, I don't know. I hope I can get an A1 for English and Chinese. My languages used to be my best but now? No. I think comprehension is bullshit. Does it help you in anyway next time? I think only writing does. And essays I guess are a piece of cake provided i like the topic.

Stupid isn't it? But most likely this term I'll do badly. Failures. I'm trying my best but maybe it's still not enough. Maybe it's my character, cause I don't really care. Failures don't bother me much. The good thing is I get back on track fast enough. BUT. I don't do a lot better the next time either.

I wish I would stop making empty promises to myself. I hate it. I disappoint myself. What a joke.

I don't complain. Nope not at all.  I think I just need someone to slap me everyday to wake me up. Because I'm living in my world.

I realise I haven't completed any homework yet.

So i have to rush everything TODAY.

Procrastination ruins me. Everything ruins me. And I only have myself to be blamed.

Great so now i have to churn out 3 essays. Some reflection on the school values. That's at least easy cause i can just crap Well i always say it's crap but honestlly that's what I feel about things.

 And honestly, I don't wanna go back to school. Well my class, yeah. I haven't really gotten used to the people there. There's only like Sherry. and maybe the rest. But seriously I miss my old class.... And how I wish to be in another class. That's where all my friends are. Like seriously.

And CCA's a drab. Honestly i don't feel happy there anymore. I have to be carefull of the way I speak and act inn case of angering somebody. Like WTF. I don't like it.

Just like what jessy says I give off the vibe "I'm who I am don't like me then fuck off" Yeah so seriously i should stop caring PERIOD.

I needa rush my homework. But most likely I'll post another time ):

HOLIDAY HOMEWORK.

ENGLISH

STUPID SPEECH
Drug essay (Deadly master)
 

CHINESE

Freaking Comprehension

MATH

Two "homeworks"

Worksheets *stretches face...... gah

GEOGRAPHY

2 activities

HISTORY

Notes??? WTH
Research on some Hokkien personality

LITERATURE

I so freaking hate you MCBETH : worksheets
                                                           memorise lines for dramatization

SCIENCE

PROJECT GUYS??? T.T
And my chem worksheet...

CME reflection! (I'll do it for alex teoh)

IPW

come on! the olympics???? -.- GAH (STUPID PROJECT)

FRENCH

You gotta be kidding me. 32 QUESTIONS IN FRENCH ON GEOGRAPHY
revision. revision. and moRE REVISION.

This is for tashya Hehe. 

I need so need to oexpress my greatest appreciation for you! Yeah!

Thanks for giving me the support i really needed so darn much. And listening...

And after so many nights, I finally fell asleep without like thinking so freaking much!

Maybe it was 4 plus am but WHO CARES! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Yups yups. Haha You may consider this insignificant. Maybe you don't. But it means so much to me... HOHOHO

And you make me laugh Haha with all those hehes and lols and xD and stuff. All the extra stuff. xD taking the seriousness away xDDDDDD

but yes.

YOU ARE TRULY A HERO TASHYAHERO XD(i hope you see this)

Hoho loves you much *huggles.

Well well, at least she's understanding enough. Or maybe she doesn't care? But what she said was the best i've heard from EVERYBODY so far. " Do something proffessional, not emotional" and then something like "it doesn't matter right? as long as you know what you're doing, but it doesn't mean something to be positive then blah blah blah"

Well she doesn't know the full story yet. Yet. I bet if she does, something will happen. I think. 

I don't need anybody or anyone. Drill that in. Yeah right. In fact i can't. Darn it. I'm breaking inside. Honestly even Yy's not very happy either. Can tell. Everybody's changing and i don't feel the same. Yeah that explains it.  

This year everyone's like different. What happened to all the promises?

My heart's crying everyday. Sigh... Heartache literally. Andheckit'snotevenabgrthing.

Went out with Zhi yi on V DAY. Yup it's great to be single. We watched the wedding game. Haha it's funny and it's not that lousy. There's a lot of hidden meaning for you to pick out. Like seriously A LOT.

Anyway, I think Zhiyi's dressing changed a lot but inside, she's still the same old person i used to know(: And that, yeah i'm glad. No matter how hard you change on the outside, as long as I search and search and find the old you, I'm satisfied. Yeah that's what makes her my best friend. It's the 6 no 8th year i've known her.

More than half my life! Haha. And I still remember all those plans we made to see the world together xD I hope you haven't forgotten. Haha. I know she won't change. I hope AND PLUS what made me real happy was SHE ASKED ME if i was free on V DAY! (: LOL. Yup

Hoho

Cheers I've never been so happy in a while(:

I'm talking to my friend on the phone...

And i realise how it cheers me up!  Like seriously... Very funny.... Haha.

It's really nice...

And she says that i'm very lonely is it? LOL...

Damn i really gotta reply email... And sorry ok_go5  i'm the one inconsistent now...

Thanks for calling Yikyan(: Yay...

Hhaahaha it's 1 a.m. ANd i'm having fun YAY
xDDDDDDDD CLOSE TO PARTY-ING XDDDDDDDDD

It's called the emoticon spazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz xDDDDDDDDDDDD

ANd taegoon! hahhaahhaha

It all started with the talk about lame emoticons!!!!!!!!!! xDDDD

aND ALL THE SUPER LAME ONIONS.... omg i'm just crazy... and not making any sense........... hahaa


Jessyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I LOVE YOU FOR MAKING ME LAUGH! XDDDDD I'VE NEVER FELT SO HAPPY THESE FEW DAYS! HAHAHA

8DDD Hahahaa

Yay(: bitch claps ahahahaha

(what a great way to start the week ohhohoho............... I'm the santa that does not give but steals!(:]

And yes you don't have to have reasons to love a person! Yup i so agreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

(Joanne you evil woman) Didn't even call me back after your shower! hahaha random(:


LOVES<3

Everything is not going right.

CCA completely was ________________ (put in own adjective)

Even highing and laughing can't erase what i feel now...  It just masks everything! D:

Everybody is pissed. Like at you at me? People cried today. I almost did. It's like half of what they say i listen and i know and i feel guilty but some of me is angry. About them saying that maybe they have chosen the wrong people last year for this cca. Like heck, people, you can't turn the clock around 12 months ago..

Somebody tell me why i'm feeling so bad now? Cause i really don't know. It's like i'm pissed at everybody. Mood swings? No it's never gotten this bad before. I need a shrink.  Is it cause of lack of sleep?

I don't know.... Everybody is pissed now...

Ok. So this is motivation.

List of stuff i need to do by today and these few days,


1. Read Chemistry notes and print.

2. Maths worksheet

3.Art homework. (so shit)

4.LITERATURE FILE.(FRIDAY!)
5.Print dividers for literature.

6. Two bloody articles about the Singapore Flyer... [TOMORROW]
7. English file
8. Vocabulary book.
9. Commonwealth essay? (if i decide to do it.)

10. Geography (ZZZzzzzzzzzzz... )

11. CCA Fair. [Saturday. Yay for juniors(:]

FRENCH

12. French revision. Apparantly i forgot all my stuff. The teacher was nice enough to help me sooo much with all the helping about  passé composé and Imparfait...

Two "mini" essays [I jolly well know it'll take me more than 1 hour]:

13. Recount about the holidays
14. Some Imparfait thing.
15. Worksheet.
16. Online homework....

VOILA. "THAT'S IT".  now i'm so tired.

Hmmm new list tomorrow... ):

Thinking....

Honesty is the best policy. Can I laugh?  Who hasn't lied before in their whole life??? I have. And i'm not afraid to admit. If you dare to do it why not dare to admit? 
 
We were talking about justice, freedom, love and truth.

Freedom. What rubbish. Freedom to do whatever we want right? Then why can't we spit on the floor? Or litter? Or even just commit arson? Yeah then it goes on to about how we must be considerate and all and all the morals about being upright and proper.

Bleagh>< I'm not making any sense am I?

Let's go on to truth. Hmm who tells the truth and nothing about the truth without cutting something? Or adding in whatever they deem fit maybe just to save their skin or/and get somebody else into trouble?

Ahh.... Now love my favourite.
Yeah love is ALL ABOUT care and concern, empathy, and sympathy, and sacrifice.
But if you love the person so much why do you not allow him/her do whatever they want? And why restrict them and say that it's all for their own good? Doesn't them being happy is the best thing ever? Even if they're commiting crime, they get what they want. They're happy. End of story.  Then again what's the definition of love? *smirk smirk.
I can beat you and knock you down with a car and still say i love you! Sigh... Then it goes back to all the previous. What the hell.... philosophies sigh.... I'm pretty much sure i'll go the wrong way next time...

Who says that the right is right and the wrong is wrong? Was Saddam Hussein wrong? Was he a 100% wrong?  Why is that lying is wrong? Is it cause you bluff and then you hurt others and all. And they feel cheated? And why can't being happy = sad?

Grrr... I'm typing gibberish. Forgive me for flooding your friends' page.
I needed to get it off my chest.


Yeah there's so much regret like why didn't i study and all but no use crying over spilt milk right.  Regret was never an option for me and it'll never be.  I really hate this. Cause i'll never get any answer for what i'm wondering about.
LOL...

 Stolen from chocorynne(:
OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children. 

Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you. (Can i just bold everything that is relavant to me?)
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.
 

( what about you?  )

Today was a RELATIVELY HAPPY DAY!(:

Going to the thrid-lang centre was funny funny funny! xDDD OMG KY I LOVE YOU HAHA. AND VENETIA TOO(:

We were all laughing and laughing.


BEST DE-STRESS MEDICINE ON EARTH? LAUGHTER!


OK.
What do you say when you see a babe across the road?
I'm a babe and i'm sexier, i'm naughtier and i'm hotter (:

What do you say when you see a hunk across the road?
ANs:OMG LOOK HERE I'M A HOT BABE

What do you say when you see a babe and hunk across the road?
Have you got the wrong babe??? Hmph

What do you say when you're with a hunk and you see another hotter hunk across the road?
OMG I've totally got the wrong hunk! *Turns to hunk beside self and says DO I KNOW YOU???

What do you say if you're with a hunk and you see another hot couple beside you?
We're hotter sexier naughtier, fiestier and everything better than you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xDDDDDDDDDDD


OK NEXT. CREDIT TO KY(:

It's a windy day and a girl's dress flips up and all. And a boy sees. xDDD What do you think he said?

Ans: OMG WHY ARE YOU WEARING TWO PANTIES???? XDDDD

And loads of others, Haha we're sick people/

WHAT'S THE MEANING OF MISTRESS?

It's the other girl under you and your husband or something like that! xDDD

ok. lol great laugh we had.

And then it was french.

The teacher haha. Super nice. I SO LOVE WEDNESDAYS NOW. ((((:
But 1 thing is that, HE ALWAYS CALLS ME. Like he'll call my name(he remembered from the first lesson! xDDD) yeah.

Fransiska,  do you understand? (in french of course) Or answer some question, Blahblahblah. HAHA
Then everytime he calls me i'm either drinking water or not really paying attention so i get a shock! And i'll go *HUH very loudly, LOL SO RETARDED. 

Sigh, then he asked me to do this question on the board. Hahaha everybody was laughing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like totally, they were like HE REALLY LOVES YOUR NAME/.

And then we were doing this weather thingy. About reports and stuff. Then the l'orage symbol really looked like shit with two legs! So we were laughing and laughing.

AND SUDDENLY, SOMEBODY SAYS HELLO! and we all got a shock!!!!!!!! xDDDD Hahaha and he admitted it really does look like something funny! xDDDD

LOL FRENCH. i love it(:


WEDNESDAYS YOU ROCK.